Flying low, soaring high

I would be lying if I tell you I'm completely out of my 'down' phase.

Sheils made an assumption of what's causing this 'near depression'. And, come to think of it, she might be right about the cause. Well, part of the cause, that is. A major part kot.. (LOLs..!).

I don't have the motivation to pull myself out of this slump. Wonder why.
Now that I've brought that up, I actually have no excuse pun being in this state for a prolonged period. Then why am I stuck here?

Probably I'm a masochist la, without even realising it. Maybe unconsciously, I enjoy being emotionally tortured and hurt. Eh, I enjoy crying myself to sleep almost every night??

OMG, that is just SO wrong. :P

OK, I exagerrate. It's not THAT often la. Although the thought of crying oneself to sleep, no matter how frequent or seldom, well.. that's not very healthy, right...

I must get back on my two feet. And pronto!
Maybe I need some distraction lah.. Any ideas?

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Now.. we've just moved into the second week of 2007. I don't really give a flying f... errr ... flying fish about new year's resolutions. Probably because I've never been so diligently trying to fulfill most of them anyway, hehe..

All that being said, I do have to get my lovely behind to Cameron Highlands before end of March this year - this one due to a promise I made to a friend, who actually shrieked in disbelief upon hearing I've never been to Cameron before. "How come you've never been to Cameron? You ni Malaysian ke tak?!"

Chaits...

My excuse? Err.. Nobody seemed interested to accompany me there. Plus, someone told me there's nothing much to do over there anyway. Although, roses are cheap, eh?

I think I'll pujuk Leen to come with me, and drag the two boys along. Hehe..

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A little birdie told me that we might be going to Bali this year, after the Jakarta plans went down the drains. As excited as I am when I heard it, I'm trying to refrain myself from daydreaming too much about this Bali trip hehe..

Nanti frust lagi macam the tak-jadi-pergi-Jakarta episode hahahaha!

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Hmm... I guess I do have some things to look forward to in 2007. Some wonderful trips to see new places, with opportunities to meet new people eh?

When my flight takes place, I'm looking forward to soaring high, after being so low..